where i want to be...

"love, I get so lost, sometimes
days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
when I want to run away
I drive off in my car
but whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are

all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

love, I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

and all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

in your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
i see the light and the heat
in your eyes

oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light,
the heat I see in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes..."

in your eyes sung by brown derbies

dedicated to: a prince

a happy holidays to all...

may the coming season bring everyone joy, happiness and prosperity.

listening to: stuck in a moment by U2

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company


I never thought you were a fool
But darling look at you
You gotta stand up straight
Carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere baby


You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it


I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see


And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now
My, oh my


You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it


I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all


You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it


Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it


And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass


And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass


It's just a moment
This time will pass

a silhouette on the beach...

listening to: cruel angel's thesis from the anime neon genesis evangelion

zankoku na tenshi no you ni
shounen   yo shinwa ni nare

Like a cruel angel,
young boy, become the legend! 

aoi kaze ga ima
mune no doa wo tataite mo
watashi dake wo tada mitsumete
hohoende'ru anata

A blue wind is now
knocking at the door to your heart, and yet
you are merely gazing at me
and smiling

sotto fureru mono
motomeru koto ni muchuu de
unmei sae mada shiranai
itaike na hitomi

Something gently touching--
you're so intent on seeking it out,
that you can't even see your fate yet,
with such innocent eyes
 
dakedo itsuka kidzuku deshou
sono senaka ni wa
haruka mirai mezasu tame no
hane ga aru koto
 
But someday I think you'll find out
that what's on your back
are wings that are for
heading for the far-off future
 
zankoku na tenshi no te-ze
madobe kara yagate tobitatsu
hotobashiru atsui patosu de
omoide wo uragiru nara
kono sora wo daite kagayaku
shounen yo shinwa ni nare
 
The cruel angel's thesis
will soon take flight through the window,
with surging, hot pathos, 
if you betray your memories
Embracing this sky and shining,
young boy, become the legend
 
zutto nemutte'ru
watashi no ai no yurikago
anata dake ga yume no shisha ni
yobareru asa ga kuru
 
Sleeping for a long time
in the cradle of my love
The morning is coming when you alone will be called
by a messenger of dreams
 
hosoi kubisuji wo
tsukiakari ga utsushite'ru
sekai-juu no toki wo tomete
tojikometai kedo
 
Moonlight reflects off
the nape of your slender neck.
Stopping time all throughout the world
I want to confine them, but...
 
moshimo futari aeta koto ni
imi ga aru nara
watashi wa sou jiyuu wo shiru
tame no baiburu
 
So if two people being brought together by fate
has any meaning,
I think that it is a "bible"
for learning freedom
 
zankoku na tenshi no te-ze
kanashimi ga soshite hajimaru
dakishimeta inochi no katachi
sono yume ni mezameta toki
dare yori mo hikari wo hanatsu
shounen yo shinwa ni nare
 
The cruel angel's thesis
The sorrow then begins
You held tight to the form of life
when you woke up from that dream
You shine brighter than anyone else
Young boy, become the legend
 
hito wa ai wo tsumugi nagara
rekishi wo tsukuru
megami nante narenai mama
watashi wa ikiru
 
People create history
while weaving love
Even knowing I'll never be a goddess or anything like that,
I live on
 
zankoku na tenshi no te-zemadobe kara yagate tobitatsu
hotobashiru atsui Ppatosu de
omoide wo uragiru nara
kono sora wo daite kagayaku
shounen yo shinwa ni nare
 
The cruel angel's thesis
will soon take flight through the window,
with surging, hot pathos,
if you betray your memories
Embracing this sky and shining,
young boy, become the legend